Kenneth Madden

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Life and Death

Death is a home coming in the sense that it is the sudden seeing that that which was sought was never lost. It is the seeing that the ‘Self’ or separate individual that was conceptualized and experienced was false. It is not the end as there is no beginning and no end. It is the seeing that there is only wholeness, there is only boundless being which appears as bound and part of the whole. Limitless life that appears limited. Boundlessness that appears bound. Liberation is really the death of ‘Me’. It is the end of an illusion. It is the end of something that never was in the first place. That is why there is only liberation. A fear of death is the a fear of the end of this contracted separate self that negotiates life, a me that cannot conceive of life without them. The big joke is that there is only life, this ‘Me’ that negotiated so well or so badly (no matter) is an illusionary addition that arises in it. So when this ‘Me’ dies either at physical death or in the body before hand it is a celebration of the recognizing of unconditional love, a celebration of the expansion into what you already always were- boundless being- boundless unconditional love.

Simply put life and death are not two separate things. It is only in the mind which thinks in terms of opposites, which makes experiences cognizable in time and space and therefore moves in a linear motion (from birth to death) that one is a fabulous beginning and the other a terrible end. Space and time only exist from the viewpoint of a centre, and that centre ‘Me’ can only ever be false. They are and have only ever been conceptual.

This message points to the causeless joy that arises in the absence of a “Me”, in the absence of a separate self. Any message that suggests there is a process or a method by which this illusionary self can be dropped or by which liberation can be brought about- is a teaching of ignorance as it speaks to the very separate self that it speaks about ending. For instance a friend recently told me of one “Teacher” who was suggesting that they investigate into “I AM”. This process or any other process can only reinforce the idea that this isn’t it now, that it is somewhere else, or something else that you can somehow and someday get to. Other more common processes are spiritual practices such as chanting, meditation, etc etc. They all reinforce that there is a separate you who has volition, who has control. There is not and never has been any such entity. The boundless wonder of simply being, the simple and ordinary causeless joy that is available constantly is continually not seen as the “Me” that apparently arises in it does the only thing it can do- be a ‘Me’. All the while a fear of death, a fear of the end of ‘Me’ and a continuous ignoring of the constant invitation to see that there is just this, that there is just being, that there is just no-thing being everything, no separate ‘me’ at all.
Beyond description, beyond words and simply simply simply this.



A shadow has no independent existence separate to it’s source. A separate individual is like a shadow that thinks that it is independent of it’s source. All the while it is never anything but it’s source. When the illusion is seen the shadow still dances the same as it did before. A character (unique individual) is free to be even more fully that character when liberation happens (although it is not a happening) as it is seen that what you are is not the character, but that the character arises in what you are. More simple put, when it is seen that you are life and don’t have a slice of it as was thought and experienced, then the life appearing as the unique character of you is the perfect expression of that life. So there is no longer a striving to improve or change or become more________ (you fill in the blank). There is just an inloveness with what is. A seeing that it is already whole. So the character is no longer bound by the illusion and of course it is seen that it never was.

Trying to grasp an uncompromising non dual message is like trying to grasp light. You cannot do it and there is absolutely no need to grasp it as you are already that. It is not the apparent separate self that hears the message and therefore understanding is of no importance and it is the individual who understands. An uncompromising non dual message is more concerned with an energetic resonance then understanding. This resonance is the boundlessness that is sought.

and then…

And she whispered gentle silence to still all toil and striving. Ah the newness, oh the newness…

Life doesn’t give a fuck how you think you are or how you want to be. All the while there is something sought, something looked for in life. Constant striving to be what you imagine or who you imagine yourself to be. Looking for experiences, states, achievements, power, status, money, on and on and on… always something. Moving in time, apparently, moving forward and never quite arriving. But you know my friend, my dear friend what you’re looking for can never be shown to you because it has never been lost. It cannot be known or experienced or seen or understood. It is the listening not whats heard, it is the seeing- not whats seen, it is the touching not whats touched… It is no thing. It is life itself not what’s apparently happening in it. This is boundless freedom, boundless and unconditional love and it doesn’t give a fuck about how you think you are. It doesn’t care because what you experience and feel yourself to be as a separate self moving in time, negotiating and relating with other apparent separate selves and objects- is a total illusion. This addition of ‘Me’ to whats apparently happening, this ‘me’ that shifts like sand through your fingers.

This is liberation- liberation from having to ‘get there’, from having to be accomplished, happy or whatever carrot the mind throws up. Life itself, Being- is whats sought. Simply This, not the content or story or whats apparently happening.

No teachers, no masters, nothing to learn, nothing to do. Simply and unconditionally this.

When the separate individual falls away This (no thing) is recognized as what was always looked for and it is seen that no thing is also everything. So instead of focusing on something or wanting something (to happen perhaps) it is seen that nothing and everything are the same, they are not two separate things. It is seen that life as an illusionary separate self was a half life, everything was secondhand. It was secondhand because it was filtered through an imaginary “me” who thought they could know the world. So the newness wasn’t seen. Everything is always new as it both is and isn’t. Amazing. So ordinary and so amazing, totally beyond any effort to describe it (this).


This is total freefall

This is completely transient, in complete freefall. Beautiful.

Duncan, before the freefall.

Swan II

Jackdaw and starlings sitting.

No crouching for this shot thank Goodness.