The aliveness in the feeling of vulnerability is the softening of the imaginary boundary with a world that’s ‘out there’ and a separate ‘Me’ that has been absolutely taken for granted. When our sense of control is weakened or falls away we can feel outside our comfort zone which is simply the pattern or flavor of a game called “I’m a separate person in the world’. That feeling can be scary but somewhere it it sensed that in it is the full aliveness that we seek.
Of course there is no one being vulnerable or trying to control- there is only the appearance of someone. To see this, life, being, as it is, now is the collapse of the contracted feeling that there is someone seeing it and the full raw open boundless manifestation of life, untrammelled by the filter of someone separate to it.
Just a suggestion.
Some therapy and personal development would promote the movement towards less control and nudge you out of your comfort zone into the unknown, into being ok with being, and showing, vulnerability. This may seem to result in a more fully alive person, however any suggestion that addresses the apparently separate individual by encouraging them to do or not do something, will only make the sense of being separate temporarily more comfortable and not get to the root cause which is the embodied sense of feeling separate and having lost wholeness. It is not you that is more vulnerable, it is simply a that there is an apparent shift out of this comfortable bubble of ‘me’. Feeling outside your comfort zone is scary but it’s also a feeling of being more alive.
Liberation is total aliveness with no one to have a comfort zone any longer. When you loose your life, when there is total poverty, you don’t have anything. Then it is seen that you are no thing, and that is everything. Then the boundless play of being and the very aliveness laughing that you ever thought you lost it.